I am and have always been unapologetically intense and up front about what I want. Did I scare off men I slept with/hung out with multiple times a week when around the month 1-3 markers I expected to be called their girlfriend? Yeup. Oh well, good riddance.
My now partner of four years has always been understanding and supportive of my feelings. (I am often lovingly/jokingly called "a woman of many emotions" when I spiral) Any time I find myself apologizing for being "too much" I'm met with "that's just part of being a human, Alicia, nothing to be sorry for."
Was I chill before? No. Am I chill now that I have someone that accepts and appreciates me? Yeah, marginally so, haha.